Hello. That summed up this entire blog and I should consider putting that as my background info. OK BACK TO BLOGGING about my life. I mean, that's why you're here right? Which guy did Sarah like? What happened? What happened between the both of them? Is she still considering to become a cell group leader? How is she? is she ok? Why is she always thankful for her friends?
Actually I really got my life in order now and I really like how things are now. I've got a personal trainer now to help me sculpt my body and to teach me those cool moves. This is entirely inspired by Kourtney Kardashian honestly because I wake up every morning to her personal training snaps.
I decided to take on personal training at Celebrity Fitness in Junction 10 (that is really near my house), not because I want to lose weight (making a mini disclaimer) but because I think its time for me to learn how to focus on myself and my fitness. More importantly, I want to feel good about myself. I want to wear that bikini in siloso beach and kayak. I want to be even more confident and people around me will rise up to my level.
Its the 11th January. I just ended my first training with fiz (my trainer) and she's friggin dope I swear. I died for an instant while doing some of the workouts but ITS SO WORTH IT. I love the idea of someone pushing me and teaching me the right and proper techniques.
This first training experience was a challenge for me because it was to the point where it became mind over body. On hindsight, it feels so rewarding after accomplishing so many different types of workouts. Although my muscles are aching so much now, its the best feeling ever.
Another thing I learnt this week was that I really like being alone sometimes. I haven't specially gone out with someone or a group of people since Sunday. Going to BBDC on my own, having lunches alone, going for personal training alone... made me realize that its okay to be alone and it feels nice and refreshing (introverted people I really understand now).
Somehow the fear of losing people in my life.. seems to be fading away.
I remember when I was in secondary school, I used to say this, 'People come and go, money comes and go but I don't come and go'. Its based on my own convictions that I don't wish to come and go into people's lives. However, I came to a place where I am okay when people come and go. And I am emotionally okay when people choose to walk out of my life.
Prof Lu discussed about happiness during his lecture today. He said that most people define happiness based on their relationships and obviously I was very captivated by this. He expounded on how happiness is based on 2 types of relationships, mainly for 1. Connections and 2. Quality Relationships.
I think I am happy. Honestly. I share so many quality relationships. Not just with my family but with my best friends too. I think I am honestly very blessed to have a complete family and a bunch of quality friends.
I am happy with my life. Life can be tough and shit can be thrown at me but life still goes on. Work still goes on, the world still revolves around the sun, no one is going to wait for me to mope around and be sad. I've got the most powerful creator behind my back and in front of me.
For those of you who are discontented with life. I don't know what your struggles are, I don't know what has happened in your family or that drama between you and your ex. But I understand and it hurts. You cry, you try all ways to move on, you become vindictive, you's ask yourself, WHY IS THE WORLD AGAINST ME?
I'm not some cell group leader but trust me, I've been hurt. And I completely understand.
All you need to do is to acknowledge your feelings, move on, do something about it and be happy and contented. Say no to the things you don't want to do, say yes to the things YOU WANT to do.
haha sounds so easy but its hell difficult I swear.
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