Approximately 17 more days to finals and I am no where near my notes. Things haven't been the best so far. Sometimes I look back and go, ' Damn Sarah why did you have to do it?'. Well, I've got nothing to say to myself.
A few nights ago, I just realized that we're so imperfect. People can disappoint you, you can disappoint people, people can say the wrong things to you, you can say hurtful things to people, vice versa. And it just came into my head that its okay because we're only humans. Of course, this doesn't give us the ability to screw up on purpose and not learn from our mistakes. I think the tipping point happens when you realize that you were wrong and you learn from it and then, you move on.
Sometimes I can't seem to forgive myself and some of you reading this might be feeling this way. too. That you're never enough or you're not fit to be someone's friend or lover. Trust me, despite the cheerful and loud personality I have, sometimes I never feel sufficient.
But something changed a few days ago. I realized that I shouldn't live my life for people, to satisfy people's expectations but to live my life for God alone. Things are going to be tough in a next couple of days and weeks but I can do this.
Thank you Jia Yan and Regi for forgiving me. Perhaps I shouldn't have done it but thank you for accepting the quirky, eccentric, straightforward me.
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