And I'll be me

Hello everyone! It is the end of finals and this marks the end of Year 1, Semester 1.

It was a crazy journey, juggling with studying, life saving, life saving, keeping up with friends, and the list goes on and on. Well, I wish I could have the element of the hall life during this semester but well, I guess not. Many people came up to me and asked why didn't I consider staying in hall or any of the residential colleges, questions like, 'Sarah you look like the kind that will stay in hall', 'Sarah why you look like the CAPT kind, not the Tembu type'.

And I go, because I still want to spend time with my family and... my parents just bought this new, amazing, beautiful house (to the extent I cannot stop snapchatting my house). I don't want to just move into such a beautiful home and then only staying in my gorgeous room for 2 nights every week. Of course, I'm very envious of those who have the hall life.. and everything but I'm very contented with what I have.

Sem 1 just ended like that, and I'm pretty sure the subsequent semesters will fly pass this quickly as well. And, if you do the math, I'm left with 7 semesters till work begins. Consequently, I have about 7 more semesters to make mistakes, good mistakes, to learn more about myself, to spend quality time with my friends, get drunk (ok maybe not), drink as many sour plum shots as possible after finals, spending hours in the library to study... And that's not enough for me.

AND I JUST THOUGHT OF SOMETHING AND THAT MADE ME LAUGH.
For all those singles out there, we are left with 7 more semesters to find that other half. ha ha.

Mhmm and talking about relationships, I was just saw my friend's insta post about finding the other half, and that he/she is very envious of others in relationships. I'm not afraid to admit that yes, I am envious of people who are in a relationship.

It's always nice to wake up to a morning text, to have the partner who will listen to your nonsense, to spend the whole night out with you, just enjoying your presence, to have someone who understands you, to eat ice cream with you when you're happy/sad, and the list goes on and on.

Every time I dream about this very idealistic other half, reality hits me and I'll be like,

Aiya, Im probably gonna be arguing with him, being all insecure, and the relationship may not even work out, ya da ya da. (God, I sound like some schizophrenic here)

Not trying to sound very desperate and needy here, but sometimes its really nice to have someone who loves you, for who you are. And I guess all you stalkers here would've agree with me that this is true.

I still don't know what I want in life, still in the process of knowing what I need and don't need.