Best things in life are free

Hello everyone, sorry for the very emotional post earlier cause things have been pretty rough for me but now all is all good. 

I'm gonna turn 19 tomorrow. I'm gonna be a year older, a year wiser and the list goes on... Things are definitely gonna change. This 19 year old Sarah is gonna be stronger, more mature, happy, crazier, loving. Basically an upgraded version of Sarah. 

This second half of the year is gonna be way more exciting, more purposeful, more challenging. 

If clouds are full of water, they pour rain on the earth. Whether a tree falls to the south or to the north, in the place where it falls, there it will lie. 

Ecclesiastes 1:1

I'm not afraid of the future. I'm ready for my comeback. 

In your atmosphere

Everything seems so bleak, there's no clear pathway, the grass isn't greener at the other side, putting in my 100% doesn't seem like it's enough. 

It feels as if I am playing Texas Poker. I have a double 4s. I am the big blind. I put out 2 chips. It continues and someone decides to raise the bet. 

'I'm gonna win', I muttered. It was the last round, I confidently put all in, thinking I was the ultimate winner. 

But no, someone else (Or rather something else), had a flush. I gave my all and I lost my all. 

Life was never worse but never better

Dear all, 

I just did a 14 minute work out and I decided to do something to this godforsaken place. 

While Kaywee blasted Taylor Swift yesterday, I realised that I like 'Wonderland' compared to the other songs. Well, I still like 'Wildest Dreams' the most though.. 

I like how Taylor Swift wrote, 'Life was never worse but never better'. And I resonate very much with it.

I feel that my life has been stagnant for the past 6 months, spiritually, physically and mentally. I guess I only found myself growing a little after I got to know you. 
(oops sorry to keep everyone in suspense)

I think it's high time I do something about my life, to do something more meaningful, lively, something, perhaps for God, maybe for family, new and old friends. I don't want my life to be stuck in this phase where things were never worse but never better. 

I want to grow, make mistakes, scream, cry, laugh at my mistakes and move forward. 

I'm gonna make this July the most meaningful July ever. Cheers to God, Jesus, NUS, new friends, old friends, best friends, family, Vanessa and you. 

Aiya as if you're ever gonna read this part.