my response

It's been a year since and I hope you're well. 
I muted everything and 
you must have muted my mindless postings and stories on social media too. 

Its been a ride for me, at least. 
I don't know about you but I hope you're happy with her. 
I still pray for dad and mom once in a while, whenever I pass by our favourite moments. 

It's time i let go, for many reasons, largely for my sanity and in the name of self love. 
I pray for God's grace to always be with you. I pray His presence will always be with you whenever you run along gas works, in every airplane ride, every hike you make, in your own little room in Mercer. 

I still pray for this friendship, for a fresh restoration, if our Lord permits. 
I still love you, regardless of any circumstances or event, simply because, 
the highest form of love is to give without looking back. 

Hope you will come back, soon, friend. 

why I cannot

I once heard a friend shared this statement, "Others can but I cannot." 

I used to dismiss that because it seems like there is no biblical context to this sentence. In addition, I find that there was no basis to what statement. 

But the more I attend bible school, I begin to realise that my life is not for me to live anymore. Others can don't work for their parents but I cannot. Others can travel but I cannot. Others can work for big firms but I cannot. Others can curse and swear but I cannot. 

What is wrong with these sentences? Perhaps because I don't qualify my 'cannot'. But in all those sentences, I find that all my qualifications come from a very simple reason - because I love Him and honor him. 

Others can choose to not take over their parents' business and I cannot because I love and honor my parents.

Others can choose to scream, shout, jump and be angry and sad and I cannot because anger gives a foothold to the devil. 

For, it is no longer I who lives in me but Christ who lives in me.