me 4 me

This ain't for the best
My reputation's never been worse, so
You must like me for me
We can't make
Any promises now, can we, babe?
But you can make me a drink

to love him

Sometimes i wonder, how do i love God? Knowing the depths, the heights, the width of his love, what can I do to repond to this perfect love? 

i dont play the drums, or any instruments, im not a cell group leader, neither am i connect group leader. i dont have a specific calling from God yet. I simply don't know how to love God. 

i've been asking myself this question since last week and truly God answers. 

which is to, hold loosely and to freely give your love away without expectations. 

something that i struggle with, but I know that's how God wants me to love him. to love his people freely and practically. to love without expectations. 

I thought to myself, I'm a hardcore ENFJ and it always has been a struggle to love without expectations. What more to give my love away so freely? 

but my young bible study teacher reminded me about this thing called 'practical love'. and along the conversation, i was very reminded of how I have shown practical love since i became a connect group leader when i was 17. To the little things like, organising a steamboat for your small connect group, letting your 12 year old member chill and finish all your gummies while she watches TV, to buying a cup of coffee for someone. To give up your own dinner plans so that someone doesn't eat alone. 

and God whispered, 'sarah this is how you love me'.