The road to somewhere

'To open the eyes of your heart to see His love for you.' Sun encouraged me with this line. I've been repeating this in my head again and again until it becomes heart knowledge.  

It has been two weeks here. There are days I felt so in awe of God. When I go on a hike in the forest, long walks along the beach, the endless road trips with Rick and Dawn, I cannot help but to be in awe of His glory. In awe. To be in a wide eyed wonder of him. I become so in love with God. How can I not be in awe of His beautiful creations? 

There are days when I'm alone, I think of what's left behind, the sense of escape disappears and coming back to my responsibilities at home. I wonder where is God in guiding me in this life journey. 

Watchman Nee encouraged me with this. 

18 Open the eyes of their hearts, and let the light of Your truth flood in. Shine Your light on the hope You are calling them to embrace. Reveal to them the glorious riches You are preparing as their inheritance. 19 Let them see the full extent of Your power that is at work in those of us who believe, and may it be done according to Your might and power.

Ephesians 1:18

I'm still in the midst of finding God. Finding eternity in Him. 
God, where are you? I miss you. 

to escape

3 more days. 

You did your best, you told yourself you had 60 days to make it work. You want a sweet ending to it, before your wonderlust dreams begin. But you slowly find yourself drowning into a pile of sand it in slow motion. You can't stop it, you cannot control it. 

It just overwhelms you. I've been telling myself this. 

33 These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will[a] have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.

 I'm waiting for God to reach out his hand towards me to pull me out of this. 

Where are you, God?