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You're Gonna Live Forever In Me 

A great big bang and dinosaurs
Fiery raining meteors
It all ends unfortunately

But you're gonna live forever in me
I'll guarantee, just wait and see

Parts of me were made by you
And planets keep their distance too
The moon's got a grip on the sea

And you're gonna live forever in me
I guarantee, it's your destiny

Life is full of sweet mistakes
And love's an honest one to make
Time leaves no fruit on the tree

But you're gonna live forever in me
I guarantee, it's just meant to be

And when the pastor asks the pews
For reasons he can't marry you
I'll keep my word and my seat

But you're gonna live forever in me
I'll guarantee, just wait and see

John Mayer

City of Stars

City of stars
Are you shining just for me?
City of stars
There's so much that I can't see
Who knows?
I felt it from the first embrace I shared with you

That now our dreams
They've finally come true

City of stars
Just one thing everybody wants
There in the bars
And through the smokescreen of the crowded restaurants
It's love
Yes, all we're looking for is love from someone else

Watched La la land with Jonathan last friday. I liked how Chazelle (the director) ended the movie. It was so real yet unreal. An alternative ending the audience craved for instead of what reality was. 

Isn't that what everyone wants? Everyone loves a happy ending, who doesn't? Perhaps we're not entitled to everything in life. I wondered about the pursuit of love with the risk of losing a friendship, a career, a dream, a calling.. it is a give or take, I think. 

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone. 

Vacillation to an end

Been thinking about this since last Febuary. I'm already halfway into the deep and what's the difference if I fully submerge myself into the waters later? What will I lose? What will I gain from this? 

Thought about this while brushing my teeth last night. Stared right straight into the mirror and asked myself: Will I become a better version of myself when I take this step forward?

I... don't know. 

But Sarah, 

Just take, one step, closer 

Put one foot in front of the other

You’ll, get through this 

Just follow the light in the darkness 

You’re gonna be ok