University life

Hello everyone, sorry but not really that sorry for the lack of updates about my life. One interesting fact about putting your blog link on your Instagram page is that you get to have a rough gauge of how many people clicked on your profile. Stalkers like me should watch out. 

Week 10 of university life is slowly creeping in about 13 minutes time and here I am, finally able to sit down and reflect upon my life. For the past 10 weeks in Uni, I've accomplished 3 presentations, 1 report, 1 mid term paper, juggled with life saving trainings every Tuesdays and Wednesday nights, cell group and service on Saturday and Sunday respectively. On top of that, I moved to another house directly opposite my previous place (lol). Further, every week, I met an average number of 2 frends every week to hang out and spent every Saturday at my grandpa's place. And, not forgetting the part where I was heavily involved in the planning of the Amazing Race. 

Just by looking at what I just typed makes me feel very... accomplished yet tired. On some days, all these overloading eventually led to lethargy and some disappointments here and there. 

After this 10 weeks, I realised that I was very focused on the social aspects of my life, such as maintaing relationships with people, making new friends and somehow, along the way, I lost tracked of my spiritual life, my grades (Oh, thank God for the S/U system in NUS) and time for myself. 

I somehow knew that there was too much going on in my life when I failed my first CPR theory test because I wasn't being my usual self. Instead, in that moment, I forgot how to be serious and to take things seriously. I guess this is just one of the flaws that I have, I just get caught in the moment and the fun just consumes me altogether. I don't know about you readers but do you feel this way sometimes? Like fun just consumes you and sometimes you don't know what you're doing? Okay nevermind. 

Or rather, on hind sight,  I've neglected the serious part of the university life and I'm still in the search of finding that balance between God, studies, CCA, friendships and family. Its tough. Really tough in fact. It really requires a lot of discipline on my part (especially with that protein shake diet coming into place). 

So, for the next four/five weeks till finals, I'm going to give myself time to study, to focus on God, my life saving CCA and family. I think its high time that I give myself some space to focus on the correct things. 

Ok. My life is settled, for now. 

Moving on, I just wanna talk a bit about relationships. G was just telling me, 

'You know, its so scary for me to read how people see their BF/GFs as their whole world. I can never imagine thinking that of someone cause they can just disppoint you and you'd be so crushed. Like I feel that you can only fully trust God.' 

Whatever she just said was so apt because I've been thinking about how much can a human love someone or fill a certain void in a particular person. 

The answer is, it will never be enough.